If I kill you every time

why do you keep on coming back?

I thought you were smart enough

to not do something like that

If I have to end your life every time

then why do you keep on coming back?

I thought you knew I wasn’t strong enough

to handle something like that

Do you do it to torture me?

Give me a sliver of happiness before I close your eyes?

Or do you do it just for me?

Give me a moment to feel seen before your demise?

Pleasure, pain, and it’s sweet reprise

Pleasure, pain, and it’s sweet reprise

Waiting for you to return

even though I know how it ends

Making room in my heart

for the new cracks and bends

Awaiting for you to say you love me

for those words are what power me

to wait for you again

Do you do it to torture me?

Give me a sliver of happiness before I close your eyes?

Or do you do it just for me?

Give me a moment to feel seen before your demise?

Pleasure, pain, and it’s sweet reprise

Pleasure, pain, and it’s sweet reprise

How I feel, you’ll never know, because you die every time I try to get the words out, and when it’s too late I think I lucked out of having love and happiness until you show up again. Please don’t go. Now you know. I love you. Where’d you go? I ask again and again and again.

Pleasure, pain, and it’s sweet reprise

Pleasure, pain, and it’s sweet reprise

~Sammicakes