memory

“According to a recent study, just as you can’t step in the same river twice, your memories are changed by the act of recalling them, meaning that every memory we have is colored by the times we’ve recollected it before… recalling a memory more often makes that memory less accurate, and that every time you take…

worn out words | poem

thoughts travel without passports or permission; love cannot be contained in the human body, so it now grows in the oak trunk of an endless tree. time threads us together in loose, haphazard seams; dreams contain all my greatest fears and fantasies, so now I plant them in the mulch beneath tall grasses to grow…

Patience and Cheesecake | Saturday Thoughts

Hello and hello! For the people who keep up with my blog, I’m sure you’ve noticed that I’ve been a bit absent. I’m nearing the end of my summer college courses, which means lots of prep work for finals and presentations. My mind has been very focused on the more academic side of my life…

First Honk at 7:30 AM

Last Friday I woke up at 5:30 to run with the sunrise. I’ve been in the habit of waking up early, but this was the first day I went outside to meet the morning. It was beautiful running as the sun started to rise, the cold wind taking tears out of my eyes and breath…

Inferiority & College

Journal Writing, Night of 1/18 ‘Don’t be intimidated by any single person. When you do that you make yourself inferior. You are not inferior. You are not inferior. You are not inferior. You are on the same level as everyone else. You may not be the best or smartest in the room, but you are…

Fitness Goals of 2023 | Comfort in my Skin & Better Body Image

Body confidence and comfort is something I haven’t known for about a decade now–ever since entering middle school. Even when I was very thin (almost lanky) I had begun to think to myself I’m so much bigger than all the others girls. In a way, it was true! I’ve always been taller than most of…

Happy Girl

I am undergoing the process… of stripping away the things that were never me and discarding the beliefs that were never truly mine. For a long while I asked everyone I met and everything I found, “How can I be happy?” After all the removals and discarding, I was left with the solid foundation. A…

Time, Money, Numbers

I want to release my dependence of the constructions of time and value. Too many times I check for the time. I’ve begun the very adult habit of checking my bank account. It’s difficult to say in a way that makes any sense with a little validity, but there is a great misery in depending…

Where do you belong in the world?

to find yourself old in a world filled with ideals that frighten you with ideals of beauty you do not find beautiful would be quite sad, alongside dying ~Sammicakes

Six Pillars of Growth | 2023 Intentions

What will bring more joy into my life and how can I bring more joy into the world? How can I increase my wealth for more opportunities and experiences aligned with who I am and what I desire? How can I spread goodness to myself and the world? How can I be a better daughter…

The Party of My Dreams | 21 and Strawberry Cake

In my dreams as a very little girl, I awake to a birthday morning in a room streaming in fluffy pink ribbons and balloons of pink hearts all around me, awaiting a kitchen filled with presents enwrapped in pink and a delicious cake of the same shade. I awake this morning to my dream. written…

1,000 Days of Missing You Deeply

In my hands a box of thyme I gift to you, wondering what with it will all you do. Will you open its lid and let the pieces scatter in the wind, the saddest of all sins? Or will you with generous hand flavor it in every dish, and in your sentiment, fulfill my sweetest…

Do You Know What it Means? | World of Dreams

I dream of me almost sleeping, by your side while you speak, you call to the beautiful girls all around you, rubbing my legs, my feet– speaking in a voice that was not your own, while I look out into the distance of a vast world ~Sammicakes